INSIGHT: Has Anyone Seen My Clarity?
Updated: May 20, 2019
Well hello again. Boy it's been quite some time since I've been here. Eight months to be exact. I almost deleted this blog but decided against it, for now. I think I'm going to give it one more shot and use it as a tool to document some things to see if I can once again find my clarity.
I'm still living positively prime, I've just been sharing most of it through Instagram because I like taking photos. From my photos you can see I've been busy. I've traveled, celebrated holidays with the family, took a beginner Italian speaking class, hung out with my pup, heck I bought a juicer and started cold-pressed juicing everyday. Overall life is good. I have many blessings.
So why am I looking for my clarity? Lately I've been feeling a bit fuzzy? If I'm honest, I've actually felt this way for the last few years. Ever since my business, columbus imPRessions lost it's largest client and I had to just about close my doors (it's still slightly open) and find a full-time job. Don't get me wrong, I do like my job. It's in nonprofit and giving to the greater good is very important to me. But it's not my own and I do miss that. It also changed my life-style and I'm feeling the pinch - financially, creatively, socially.
Maybe it's also because I'm still trying to figure out what to do with myself now that the kids are grown and moved out. Don't get me wrong I do enjoy my freedom to do what I want, when I want. But sometimes the silence in the house is so loud. There is a big difference between being alone and being lonely. Loneliness can sometimes be incredibly smothering.
Honestly, if I had my way I'd pack it all up, take my dog and travel the world. But unfortunately I don't have the means for that life of adventure, so for now I'll enjoy my occasional vacations that I have planned and continue living each day to the fullest as I try to find the clarity I've seem to have lost along the way.
So this blog will become my map to my next big step. I'm not sure what or where that is, but I'm open to pretty much anything just as long as it gives me a clearer vision and a feeling of ownership. In the meantime I may be transparent, vulnerable, raw or maybe even sporadic. I'm feeling all sorts of ways lately so I'm not sure what will show up on these pages. You've been warned.
So until next time. Here's a photo of me and my dog, Bentley. Wherever this next step takes me, he is coming too!